18.8.18

slip thru ur veins

this is the reason
why i hate myself

while everybody out there
enjoying and living their life

i am here
just. here.
still. here.

5.8.18

here and there

i know im not the only one
and not gonna be the only one
but
im thankful for the memories
and will forever cherish the opportunity that i had

30.7.18

chocolate buttermilk earl grey

that was a cute surprise
a piece of cake 
a non stop burning candle


행복

19.7.18

0719

the day i should be a highlight
but

i still need to consider everyone's feeling
instead of mine

because
no one seems to be interested to care of me

i dont know
it supposed to be the happy day for me
(at least, a day..)
but
i know, im expecting anything
just a plain day
normal boring day
less conversation made
being ignored and important

i hope..
one day
i can have the best birthday
(as if i can have it)
(i just hope)

but,
most of the time
i hate my birthday
it scares me
it makes me wanna expect something
something like
(ahh.. must be surprise from someone...)
(its gonna be fun when u have someone else celebrate your birthday)

i dont know
it just a day i want to skip



sigh