27.9.18

as a toy,

i'll be more careful next time

more than anything

i dont know where is wrong
the hormonal part or it just me

i think, it just me
it just me who wanted to be happy
when happy is not for me at the first place
but i still, hoping for at least i can taste a lil bit happy

sigh..

last night was a major emotional breakdown
i feel so sad..
but at the same time
i come back to the reality
where
im just a toy..

how can a toy wanted a happy life as a human?
how can a toy can be considered as a priority when u just an object without feeling

im sorry i take for granted
im so blinded with the kindness that had been poured to me
i know it  just.. a payment for a toy..
im too overwhelming with my own imaginary dream
im sorry..








sigh.. 

15.9.18

heritageee

it was nice trip
nice food
good smell
deep feeling
soft touch
great ride
it was nice

not tattoed

i know all these are temporary
but
i wish i can make it forever
(when i know it wont happens)